It has always been a challenge for me to make friends and even more challenging for me to keep them. I moved around a lot growing up and no one really stuck if ya know what I mean. As I got older and not very much wiser I learned alot from a few amazing ladies in my life, as well as a few men. My one friend, we'll call her Cougar due to her current status ;), has been with me for 5 years and always held my hand while I took some wrong roads in live. She is one person I know I can count on even across the country to be here for me always. I think she may be my first real friend that has called me on my shit but stuck by me in it, given me advice, watched me cry and picked me up. She has helped me grow and I look up to her, not just because she's 9 feet tall either! Another is my MIL. Man.... Where do I begin with her? She has been a mother to me when no one else would. She knows exactly when to call just to say "I love you" and if it weren't for her I don't know what we would do. She has taught me so much about how to be a mom and a wife. My husband and her have also taught me to forgive and how to be lived if that makes any sense. My kids are so blessed to have her and I absolutely struck gold with my mother in law! Truly an amazing woman with a heart so giving and forgiving she deserves a medal. To be honest words can not express how much I adore her. Then there's my husband. Those who know me know that he has been through hell and back (several times) with me. He encourages me and lifts my spirits the way no one could. He is my everything. I'm sure we all have heard people say "I don't know where I would be without...." but honest to god I would be nothing without him. I have very few people that I hold so close. My inner "circle" is not large lol. I can't forget my TP. She is another amazing person that has watched me grow and forgiven me for my wrongs and I am so thankful to be in her life. My life would not be the same without her. She is another that will stick by me from across the country and I completely look up too.
Now the reason I'm talking about this is because it is very new to me to try and make friends. I have trust issues to say the least lol. So here I am away from my small group of people and I have to make new friends. It's a totally different dynamic. It took me 26 years to collect the few I have lol. Being an army spouse you have to make friends fast and realize you don't know how long they will be there for you or vice versa. You have to be willing to leave your kids with a person you've known for a month that you trust entirely and built a strong bond with but willing to say good bye to them tomorrow. I have to say that for being so bitchy I hit the freaking jackpot on army friends here. I do trust them and can't think of a bind they couldn't help me out of. It's all very new to me. Having friends so fast and trusting them and loving them so fast. But at the same time I couldn't imagine what my life would be like without them in it. It may be a new change but it is definitely a welcome one. I guess this is just a blog to realize how blessed I am with my army family and otherwise. without everyones support I don't know that I would be able to make it thru the next few weeks or months. So for future reference we have the cougar, the MIL, TP and my hubby. Here we have my red headed snookie, the Shepard (we'll call her that due to my grazing), okie and TC. There are so many amazing people in my life and I could blog for days about some of them so don't think I forgot you! Just a shout out to all of you and thank you all for your support because it's needed now more than ever!
No comments:
Post a Comment